Serendipity

Today's readings came together in a surprising way.

My walk through The New Oxford Book of English Verse has me in William Shakespeare this week. At three pages a day (this will get me through the volume in a year), the Shakespeare section - the longest so far - will have taken a full week. Brilliant! Today I finished the last of Oxford's twenty selected Sonnets.

The following sonnet (152 of the Oxford poems, Sonnet 129 in the Yale Shakespeare complete collection) jumped out at me especially because of my morning Bible reading. Let me introduce you to the Sonnet by way of the lurid, tragic story from 2 Samuel 13:

Now Absalom, David's son, had a beautiful sister, whose name was Tamar. And after a time Amnon, David's son, loved her. And Amnon was so tormented that he made himself ill because of his sister Tamar, for she was a virgin, and it seemed impossible to Amnon to do anything to her. But Amnon had a friend, whose name was Jonadab, the son of Shimeah, David's brother. And Jonadab was a very crafty man. And he said to him, “O son of the king, why are you so haggard morning after morning? Will you not tell me?” Amnon said to him, “I love Tamar, my brother Absalom's sister.” Jonadab said to him, “Lie down on your bed and pretend to be ill. And when your father comes to see you, say to him, ‘Let my sister Tamar come and give me bread to eat, and prepare the food in my sight, that I may see it and eat it from her hand.’” So Amnon lay down and pretended to be ill. And when the king came to see him, Amnon said to the king, “Please let my sister Tamar come and make a couple of cakes in my sight, that I may eat from her hand.”

Then David sent home to Tamar, saying, “Go to your brother Amnon's house and prepare food for him.” So Tamar went to her brother Amnon's house, where he was lying down. And she took dough and kneaded it and made cakes in his sight and baked the cakes. And she took the pan and emptied it out before him, but he refused to eat. And Amnon said, “Send out everyone from me.” So everyone went out from him. Then Amnon said to Tamar, “Bring the food into the chamber, that I may eat from your hand.” And Tamar took the cakes she had made and brought them into the chamber to Amnon her brother. But when she brought them near him to eat, he took hold of her and said to her, “Come, lie with me, my sister.” She answered him, “No, my brother, do not violate me, for such a thing is not done in Israel; do not do this outrageous thing. As for me, where could I carry my shame? And as for you, you would be as one of the outrageous fools in Israel. Now therefore, please speak to the king, for he will not withhold me from you.” But he would not listen to her, and being stronger than she, he violated her and lay with her.

Then Amnon hated her with very great hatred, so that the hatred with which he hated her was greater than the love with which he had loved her. And Amnon said to her, “Get up! Go!” But she said to him, “No, my brother, for this wrong in sending me away is greater than the other that you did to me.” But he would not listen to her. He called the young man who served him and said, “Put this woman out of my presence and bolt the door after her.” Now she was wearing a long robe with sleeves, for thus were the virgin daughters of the king dressed. So his servant put her out and bolted the door after her. And Tamar put ashes on her head and tore the long robe that she wore. And she laid her hand on her head and went away, crying aloud as she went.

(During my reading this morning, I wondered for the first time: who was David's biographer? Has anyone done a profile of the biographer? He would be nearly as interesting as his subject, I think!)

So, with that story in my head, an hour or so later I opened to this sonnet:

The expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action; and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust,
Enjoy'd no sooner but despised straight,
Past reason hunted, and no sooner had
Past reason hated, as a swallow'd bait
On purpose laid to make the taker mad;
Mad in pursuit and in possession so;
Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme;
A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe;
Before, a joy proposed; behind, a dream.
   All this the world well knows; yet none knows well
   To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.

(Sonnet 129, William Shakespeare)

I just love the serendipity. And though I've read through the Sonnets at least once - and know several by heart - I was struck as if for the first time by the utter seriousness of this (and others). Indeed, the last of the sonnets in the Oxford anthology warrants a separate post of its own, with a serious question about just who this Shakespeare guy was, anyway. For today, I have to say Shakespeare knew the human heart, and I have to assume he also knew his Bible. Did he perhaps write this sonnet with Amnon and Tamar's story in mind? Maybe not - but don't they work together?

I am sick with love

The anonymous poet, roughly contemporaneous with Chaucer, ends each stanza of today's poem with a quotation from the Latin Bible, from the Song of Songs: "I am sick with love" - Quia Amore Langueo. The Latin speaks so beautifully, and that last word, "langueo" (sick; you see our English "languish" in it), is so rich: say it slowly, and feel how it moves through your mouth, from the tip of the tongue on the teeth ("l") to the very back of the throat ("ng"); and how the vowels move from the open "a" to the rounded "u" and then back into the mouth on the "o." What a word. Read this poem aloud!

Well, when you can, read all poems aloud!

Back in the fourteenth century, it may be a fair guess, readers would have quickly understood what - rather, who - this poem is about. If you get there yourself, read it with humility. Me? Well, to be fair, I've had my head in this kind of metaphoric poetry for over a year - though from a different time and place. So it had me at the first line of the second stanza: "Upon this mount I found a tree." Your results may vary. Regardless, read, ponder, and enjoy this beautiful poem.

Quia Amore Langueo
 
IN a valley of this restles mind   
I sought in mountain and in mead,   
Trusting a true love for to find.   
Upon an hill then took I heed;   
A voice I heard (and near I yede)             5
In great dolour complaining tho:   
See, dear soul, how my sides bleed   
  Quia amore langueo.   

Upon this hill I found a tree,   
Under a tree a man sitting;      10
From head to foot wounded was he;   
His hearte blood I saw bleeding:   
A seemly man to be a king,   
A gracious face to look unto.   
I askèd why he had paining;      15
  He said, Quia amore langueo.   

I am true love that false was never;   
My sister, man's soul, I loved her thus.   
Because we would in no wise dissever   
I left my kingdom glorious.      20
I purveyed her a palace full precious;   
She fled, I followed, I loved her so   
That I suffered this pain piteous   
  Quia amore langueo.   

My fair love and my spouse bright!      25
I saved her from beating, and she hath me bet;   
I clothed her in grace and heavenly light;   
This bloody shirt she hath on me set;   
For longing of love yet would I not let;   
Sweete strokes are these: lo!      30
I have loved her ever as I her het   
  Quia amore langueo.   

I crowned her with bliss and she me with thorn;   
I led her to chamber and she me to die;   
I brought her to worship and she me to scorn;      35
I did her reverence and she me villany.   
To love that loveth is no maistry;   
Her hate made never my love her foe:   
Ask me then no question why—   
  Quia amore langueo.      40

Look unto mine handes, man!   
These gloves were given me when I her sought;   
They be not white, but red and wan;   
Embroidered with blood my spouse them brought.   
They will not off; I loose hem nought;      45
I woo her with hem wherever she go.   
These hands for her so friendly fought   
  Quia amore langueo.   

Marvel not, man, though I sit still.   
See, love hath shod me wonder strait:      50
Buckled my feet, as was her will,   
With sharpe nails (well thou may'st wait!)   
In my love was never desait;   
All my membres I have opened her to;   
My body I made her herte's bait      55
  Quia amore langueo.   

In my side I have made her nest;   
Look in, how weet a wound is here!   
This is her chamber, here shall she rest,   
That she and I may sleep in fere.      60
Here may she wash, if any filth were;   
Here is seat for all her woe;   
Come when she will, she shall have cheer   
  Quia amore langueo.   

I will abide till she be ready,      65
I will her sue if she say nay;   
If she be retchless I will be greedy,   
If she be dangerous I will her pray;   
If she weep, then bide I ne may:   
Mine arms ben spread to clip her me to.      70
Cry once, I come: now, soul, assay   
  Quia amore langueo.   

Fair love, let us go play:   
Apples ben ripe in my gardayne.   
I shall thee clothe in a new array,      75
Thy meat shall be milk, honey and wine.   
Fair love, let us go dine:   
Thy sustenance is in my crippe, lo!   
Tarry thou not, my fair spouse mine,   
  Quia amore langueo.      80

If thou be foul, I shall thee make clean;   
If thou be sick, I shall thee heal;   
If thou mourn ought, I shall thee mene;   
Why wilt thou not, fair love, with me deal?   
Foundest thou ever love so leal?      85
What wilt thou, soul, that I shall do?   
I may not unkindly thee appeal   
  Quia amore langueo.   

What shall I do now with my spouse   
But abide her of my gentleness,      90
Till that she look out of her house   
Of fleshly affection? love mine she is;   
Her bed is made, her bolster is bliss,   
Her chamber is chosen; is there none mo.   
Look out on me at the window of kindeness      95
  Quia amore langueo.   

My love is in her chamber: hold your peace!   
Make ye no noise, but let her sleep.   
My babe I would not were in disease,   
I may not hear my dear child weep.     100
With my pap I shall her keep;   
Ne marvel ye not though I tend her to:   
This wound in my side had ne'er be so deep   
  But Quia amore langueo.   

Long thou for love never so high,     105
My love is more than thine may be.   
Thou weepest, thou gladdest, I sit thee by:   
Yet wouldst thou once, love, look unto me!   
Should I always feede thee   
With children meat? Nay, love, not so!     110
I will prove thy love with adversitè   
  Quia amore langueo.   

Wax not weary, mine own wife!   
What mede is aye to live in comfort?   
In tribulation I reign more rife     115
Ofter times than in disport.   
In weal and in woe I am aye to support:   
Mine own wife, go not me fro!   
Thy mede is marked, when thou art mort:   
  Quia amore langueo.     120




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GLOSS:  quia amore langueo (I am sick with love; Canticles 2:5)
yede] went.  het] promised.  bait] resting-place.  weet] wet.  in fere] together.  crippe] scrip.  mene] care for.

Chaucer

I am struck with how little poetry we are exposed to. I think I've had pretty good lit courses, from high school through my undergrad days. At one point, as late as my senior year of college, I thought maybe I'd change course and finish a degree in English lit rather than music. (Some days, I wish I had!) Good teachers, from junior high on, made me read great literature, and much of that was poetry.

Still, I imagine I'm not alone in this: When I think "Chaucer" I think . . .
Canterbury Tales
and . . .

Nope, that's pretty much it. Chaucer = Canterbury Tales. End of that unit.

So this was a nice surprise in my first few days of reading through The New Oxford Book of English Verse.

Love Unfeigned

    O YONGE freshe folkes, he or she,
    In which that love upgroweth with your age,
    Repeyreth home from worldly vanity,
    And of your heart up-casteth the visage
    To thilke God that after his image
    You made, and thinketh all n'is but a fair
    This world, that passeth soon as flowers fair.

    And loveth him, the which that right for love
    Upon a cross, our soules for to buy,
    First starf, and rose, and sit in heaven above;
    For he n'ill falsen no wight, dare I say,
    That will his heart all wholly on him lay.
    And since he best to love is, and most meek,
    What needeth feigned loves for to seek?

 repeyreth: repair ye
 starf: died

It's not too late for me to benefit from Mr. Chaucer's good counsel!

Adventures with Words

One of my goals for 2014 is to read through the New Oxford Book of English Verse. Specifically, to read through my 1972 edition, which I've had since 1976 and frequently dip into but never systematically. The anthology is organized chronologically, which appeals to my nerdiness, but is nicely indexed and easy to use when looking for something specific.

Why poetry? Why an old anthology? Why English?

Well, English because it's my language, and the expression is more direct than with poetry translated into English. Not to mention that this is a resource I already have. (I have many books of poetry, but this is the most comprehensive.) Older anthology because, again, it is what I have; and also I am not sure I care to read through a lot of poetry written in the last quarter century. (There are living poets I admire and try to follow.) Why poetry? This just seems an important way for a lover of words to relish language, to grow in expression, and to explore the thoughts and hearts of women and men through the centuries.

A corollary to my reading is a softer goal for the year. I hope each day to write a phrase, line, or stanza of poetry. I am no poet, but I have dabbled over the years. Parody I'm pretty good with. Haiku has been a satisfying form to work in. I've written the occasional sonnet and valentine poem. My forte, my metier is probably doggerel. So far, on this 18th day of 2014, I've managed to produce something more days than not.

It is extremely unlikely that my own poetry will appear on this site. But I will be posting some of the poems that have especially caught my eye, my heart, my fancy.

Rejoice with me

She called her neighbors and said, “Rejoice with me, for what was lost has been found!”

(a parable from Jesus, in the Gospels)

As I wrote my thesis I had enormous stacks of books from multiple libraries, piled, spread, tucked, and scattered around my study. At the end of summer, some of these had been renewed over and over for months. Thinking I was “mostly done,”and feeling guilty that someone else might want access to some of them, I returned most of the stack to Wheaton’s Buswell Library. A few short weeks later, about a month into the fall semester, I checked a few of them out again, whilst checking references and following up some lingering questions.

Some time later I needed to check something in Christoph Wolff’s The World of the Bach Cantatas. But for some reason I could not lay my hand on it. A week later, following some serious searching and pawing through and re-organizing, I still could not find it. I began to feel alarmed. I conducted several searches through both vehicles, I went through all the bags in the house. I went to coffee shops to see if I had left it behind somewhere.

Beyond alarm, I was now beginning to wonder how I was going to afford to replace this book. I borrowed the book from another library. Finally I talked to the circulation librarian at Buswell. She kindly offered to put out an APB at the library, “just in case.” Of course, this proved fruitless. Equally kindly, she suggested we talk “after the holidays” about what this was going to mean.

So, I was technically at liberty but preparing to plead guilty, and waiting for my sentencing.

Yesterday, preparing to listen to the St. Olaf Christmas Festival online, my Karen suggested I drag out the speakers from my church office to use in the family room. They were easy enough to find, in a box, under my desk, tucked away with photos and other things I hope to put back in a professional office one day.

And what to my wondering eyes? There, in this open-topped box, in a hard to reach place, which had been left alone for about a year, was Christoph Wolff’s The World of the Bach Cantatas. How in the world did it get there? It could not just fall in. Everything under my desk is waiting for my next job; there is nothing from my current writing or teaching down there; indeed, I can barely pull my chair up to sit at the desk. Obviously someone (and it would have to be me) put the book here. I have absolutely no idea.

But that just adds to the wonder, the delight, the adventure of tearing a house upside down, and then being surprised long after giving up hope. So I invite you to “rejoice with me, for what was lost has been found!”

I can’t wait to put this into my librarian’s hands and celebrate with her!

Neologisms

I have handed in a draft of my thesis, and can now turn my hand again to other adventurous ideas. Reflections coming out of the thesis proper will show up at my other blog. But the adventure of writing? Well, I guess that belongs here.

Or more specifically, today, the adventure of words. I’ve written a passel of words over the past 6 months. Too many for a thesis, actually. I’m sure my next adventure there, before it gets approved, will be the process of editing down.

One fun aspect of typing, editing, proof-reading, and otherwise being buried in words, is the joy of unexpected ideas that pop up through typos. Or in some cases, just through over-thinking things.

So, here’s a short list of neologisms – words that ought to be:

Threatise: a document proposing, justifying, and explaining the ways and means of intimidation (physical or emotional). See The Prince by Machiavelli.

Comcluding: when your Comcast contract runs out; or, if you close your Comcast contract early.

Oboeligatto: well, what would you call  the melody played by a double reed instrument  accompanying a different tune? (see BWV 5/4, or read my thesis when it comes out)

 

Bilbliography: the list of resources consulted for an article, chapter, or book about a beloved hobbit.

  JRRT's drawing, taken from Wikipedia via Google images

Quirkly: adv., in a rapid but unsual manner; or, in an unusually rapid manner.

There’s another that only great exercise of self-control, and the fear of the PC police keeps me from posting. But that raises a whole other question about the adventures of the recesses of the human mind.